` THE RALLY `
Sunday, May 3, 2009
The last 1 and a half week was rather tiring, mostly mentally, half physically. Really stressed out, half of the time i dont know why, but i keep thinking and thinking non stop. Had lesser sleep then usual, most of the time, disturbed sleep with nitemares and stupid dreams, sometimes i dunno if i am awake or sleeping. Some disturbing thoughts don seem to go away. its affecting my concentration. lethargy has gotten me that so much so that i don feel like doing anything, restless through the week, just wanna go out and watch a comedy and lighten up. Depression? i dunno.
Well, i don really understand how i feel, so i guess no one does and could help. the daily accumulated tiredness is adding on and on and on everyday that i feel so worned out that i don even feel alive. The most Depressing thing is on my wife's actual bday, i couldnt get a cake. not to mention, the day was spent shopping for stuff and the night went to catching a rat that appeared in my room. i tried to sleep but cant, i wish i can sleep for like 24 hrs and get back all my energy and back to my regular life, but i cant seem to fall asleep. Disturbing thoughts came in over and over again. havent been to blog for a long time, surprize that something happen in march 26 which i totally did not realise. so long ago, found out so recently. shocker. the thoughts are making me really depress man.
brakes applied at |5/03/2009 10:04:00 PM|
